Paranoia

as defined on Dictionary.com .......

1. Psychiatry . a mental disorder characterized by systematized delusions and the projection of personal conflicts, which are ascribed to the supposed hostility of others, sometimes progressing to disturbances of consciousness and aggressive acts believed to be performed in self-defense or as a mission
2. baseless or excessive suspicion of the motives of others.

This doesn't seem to be an attractive picture painted by a reference that millions would consult to find meaning.  I'm taking this personally.

Great. Maybe I am paranoid.  

Okay.  Let's break this down.  Definition number one.  "A mental disorder..."  That's a little harsh.  Everyone has problems don't they? We all suffer from mental disorderly conduct at some time or another.  Right? 

"..characterized by systematized delusions and the projection of personal conflicts, which are ascribed to the supposed hostility of others"  Do I blame or take out my issues on people who are only supposedly mean and not really mean?  Not all the time.  Maybe sometimes on cashiers and stupid, insensitive strangers. Hey, at least my delusions are "systematized".  That means I'm an organized person, right?

"..sometimes progressing to disturbances of consciousness and aggressive acts believed to be performed in self-defense or as a mission" But if you're gonna get hurt, at least be the first one to do the hurting. That's what they do in boxing matches.  And they get a belt for it.  The disturbances of consciousness never happens, so that definitely strikes out definition number one.

Definition number two is "baseless or excessive suspicion of the motives of others."  I resent that.  I just don't have tangible proof of their motives.  It's the way they said it or how they looked at me.  How do you prove that?  They could just lie.

This is a stupid exercise.